Anal accident

Hey there! 

I'm Eve a 25 year old girl from Belgium. I use the word girl for a very specific reason: I am really flat chested so my body resembles one of a young teen. I often get mistaken for one too. Not that it bothers me, I kind of actually like it now. In my early teens my lack of development bothered me and I got teased for it causing me to have low self-esteem during my younger years. Later on I learned to accept my situation and since a couple of years I even started to like my underdeveloped chest. It's esthetically pleasing, kind of gives me an athletic look, think Darya Klishina or Yuliya Levchenko with slightly less abs and maybe a bit less boob as well. I found that instead of hiding my lack of breasts but actually accentuating it gives me so much confidence and people react so much better to me. Despite my obvious "flaw" I’m considered sexy by many, myself included. 

To give you an idea what kind of flatness I am dealing with I added a bikini picture below. Since I will probably be posting some things that are not considered normal at all and for some maybe even dirty or worse I will always blur my face to keep my identity a secret.

Even though I sport a lot and watch what I eat I think I’m blessed with good genes. I have a slender frame but still feminine with some hips, long legs and a narrow waist. Standing at 1m78 I’m also pretty tall which is a nice asset too... And I still love to wear high heals 😂 

Anyway this blog will be about me and my day to day adventures, often sexual in nature but it's not a prerequisite. My flat chest will obviously be a theme but I also am really kinky and am a girl of many fetishes. Why am I doing this? It turns me on writing about my unusual sexual preferences and to give a peek into my psyche. I also find it very interesting and useful for self-analysis. Psychology is something that intrigues me.

For this first post I want to tell you some background information about myself and maybe dive into the story how I started getting into anal sex.

My Stats

First I'd like to give you some of my body stats. Many will think this is objectifying but I am proud of my body so I like to talk about it and share it's details. I don't feel like an object at all doing this. My measurements are part of who I am too.

Age         25

Height         1.78m (5' 10")

Weight 55 kg

Cup size 28 AA(A)

Hair colour chestnut brown

Eyes brown

The cup size is either AA or AAA. AAA is the smallest there is but not all stores/brands have it. It's very hard to find a bra that actually fits so most of the time I have to resort to an AA bra which I don't even fill. You might be wondering why on earth am I buying bra's cause I'm not going to need one in a million years? Well, I am very into lingerie fashion and it looks amazing on me, it's feminine and I simply like to wear them, I like the touch of the fabric on my skin and nipples. The fact it's something totally useless for me makes me feel very sexy wearing it. And sometimes in a professional setting it's probably better to hide my nipples poking through my T-shirt or top I guess 😉.

Now let's dive into one of my adventures. This is one from a long time ago and it explains how I became a big fan of anal sex.

How I got into anal sex

If I have to choose between vaginal and anal sex I'm almost always going to choose anal. I like it that much. Vaginal is just foreplay for me if I even engage in it at all. It's not that I don't enjoy it but I just get so much more out of anal. Of course this wasn't always the case, in my teenage years I started masturbating the "normal" way and I liked it very much but then that all changed with pretty much one single experience. 

I was on a youth camp holiday with boys and girls all around my age. It's one of those group travel arrangements with supervisors. It was an athletics camp so we were sporting a lot but there was also room for recreation. During one of those moments we went to the beach to sunbathe, play some volleyball and just relax. During that time of my life I was still shy and insecure about my flat chest so I didn't make much contact with the rest of the group yet so I put my towel in an isolated spot and started to rub sunscreen over my body. First my face, then arms and stomach and the area between my nipples where my bikini allowed it. Then I moved on to my back but unsurprisingly I was struggling with that.

I guess one of the boys in the group must have noticed my clumsy attempt to prevent my back from burning, he came up to me and offered to rub my back in. It was the boy who tried to chit-chat with me before, in retrospect I think he must have liked me but I was way too insecure to realise it back then. He was not bad looking and seemed friendly so I agreed to it. I laid myself on my stomach and unhooked the bands of my bikini top for easier access to my back. Fear of showing too much of my "boobs" was unknown to me since there wasn't really anything to be seen anyway so unhooking my top felt pretty natural even for my insecure self. I realise now it must have come across very different for the boy though 😅

He began with my upper back and neck, moved on to the middle area where my bikini top bands were and then did my lower back but he made sure to stay a few inches away from my bikini bottom. I appreciated his carefulness but I didn't want to get burned there either so I told him to go a bit inside my bikini bottom so when it shifts around a bit I certainly wouldn't get burned. Besides, his hands on my smooth back was very pleasant to say the least, I could really feel the butterflies in my stomach.

He put some more sunscreen on his hands and placed them on my lower back and started massaging it in. At first near the edges of my bikini bottom and then with one finger inside just at the height of my tail bone. He grew more confident and perhaps somewhat aroused cause with his next movements he went in deeper with a bigger part of his hand. I could feel his middle finger gliding up my crack deeper and deeper with each stroke. I was thinking that the sun for sure won't get there and wanted to stop him but at the same time it felt very good what he was doing so I didn't react at all. 

What happened next was totally crazy for me and a defining moment of my life. To this day I still don't know whether it was an accident or on purpose but I think he slipped too far and his middle finger ended pretty far up my ass, not just the crack mind you, literally in my asshole. With his finger oiled up from the sunscreen it really slid in like butter. I didn't know what the hell was happening, all kinds of thoughts crossed my mind: "WTF is this, is he in my pussy?", "No can't be he was near my ass", "OMG is his finger IN my ass???". I never had a finger in my ass before so I didn't know how it felt at all, all I knew is that I liked it a lot. So much in fact that it overruled any outrage reaction on my part. When he realised what he did he apologized and retreated his finger and hand from my bikini bottom but in a split second automatic reaction I grabbed his wrist to stop him and said the most non sensical thing I ever said "Don't stop there you didn't finish that spot yet" and guided his hand and finger back in. He got the message and slid in and out a few more times while I was busy  trying to supress any moaning. This went on for a short while until it suddenly hit me...

His finger is so deep in my ass it must be covered in my poop!! The shame and embarassment won from the pleasure and I pulled his hand out of my bikini bottom. I grabbed his hand while checking for any dirt and pulled him towards the sea. The only thing on my mind was to wash it off as quickly as possible while running towards the ocean. The situation wasn't as bad as I feared but I definitely saw some brown goo on our now intertwined hands. A combination of the sunscreen and bits of my poop no doubt. Only halfway there I realised I wasn't wearing any bikini top either. No, I unhooked the bands of my bikini top earlier. Because of all the feelings of shame and arousal I totally forgot about that. If only I could go back in time and prevent all this. How did I get into this mess in just a couple minutes? To make matters worse all of this made me very wet down there and I'm sure there was a wet patch visible on my bikini bottom. Luckily that would soon be hidden by the water of the ocean.

Must have looked really weird for the other group who were somewhat more than 20m away from us. They didn't see him going up my ass cause his back was towards them but from their point of view he's rubbing my back with sunscreen one moment and the other he's running towards the ocean hand in hand with my topless self. The only way I could ever explain this was if I would kiss him in the sea and that he's my new boyfriend for the camp. So I did exactly that. Once we reached the water I swirled our hands back and forth washing the brown goo away, pulled him up close to my flat chest and made out with him. I heard he group go wild, they yelled, they clapped they called me names. It was an enormous cascade of emotions: shame, adrenaline, ecstacy, feeling actually wanted, feeling actually sexy, feeling slutty. I can't think of a moment in my life that had more impact on me emotionally than that.

And it didn't stop with just that moment because they all saw my flatter than flat chest so for the remainder of the camp I was known as the flat chested slut. I did get more attention from then on, some bad but surprisingly most of it was nice and friendly once they got to know me a bit more. 

The guy, his name was David btw 😂, became indeed my holiday boyfriend. We talked about what happened and he told me it was a finger slipping accident and I chose to believe him even though I didn't really care. I told him we could do that again some time if he wanted and he agreed. He asked if we would also be kissing then and I said "sure, if you want" but to be honest the kissing was very optional for me. I did make sure my ass was at least somewhat clean for the times we met up after that. I tried to go to the toilet before meeting up with him and checking with my own finger how clean it was. Needless to say I spent a lot of time on the toilet 😅. This was also the first time I had my own finger up my bum but it would not be the last.

In case you are wondering, no I never let him do anything with my pussy. I think in my eyes  he didn't deserve that cause I needed to keep up that charade and he violated my ass even though I ended up liking that.

That camp holiday completely changed my sexuality. I started fingering my own ass more and more and discovered I really like that sort of thing.Come to think of it, I think many of my fetishes can be backtraced to that one experience 😇

So that's how I became a huge anal fan. See you guys next time for my next post 😊